I Missed My Guy

I know it is 2012 now and women are independent and all, but when my guy left me for three days I MISSED him. 

Recently my husband went away with our church for a men’s retreat.  It was an amazing opportunity and I was so excited for him, but there was no contact during this retreat.  Now, you have to understand, we have been together since April of 1997 and never had we gone three consecutive days without speaking to one another.  Even when I was on the other side of the world in Australia, I would call once a day.  So, this, I could tell, was going to be a challenge. 

Fun picture of us on our honeymoon

Thursday afternoon Skyla and I waved goodbye and I held her as she cried that daddy would be gone for so long.  I didn’t show her that I too shed a few tears.  I had to be strong and reassuring that all was going to be fun and exciting!

The days passed and we had so many things planned that they really did rush by.  The nights though were the hardest.  After the chaos of the day was settled, the kids were all asleep the darkness felt compressing.  I was glad I had Bella, our dog.  Having watched far too many scary movies as a child I was waiting for Krueger or Jason’s head to be staring at me through the bottom corner of any window.  Letting Bella out before bed was a challenge.  Who knew who was going to creep through that door when I had it open???   Shivers…

The first night was the hardest and they got a little easier as the weekend progressed.  But, I missed him.  I will admit it.  It wasn’t the day to day, the chores, the children, or all those extras.  It was just having him there that I missed.  He can make me laugh like no other and I missed that too.  I found myself making an elaborate Brian shaped pillow before I finally turned out the lights for the night.  That is, after I exhausted myself senseless.  Brian is always the one who says it is time for bed, so without that I was up at least until 1:30am every night.  I did get a lot of work done though! 

Sunday afternoon he came home and within an hour it was like he never left, except for the goofy perma-grin I had on my face.  I learned a lot about myself while he was gone.  The biggest lesson being that I am perfectly capable of doing everything on my own, but, well…  I just would never want to.